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Bill Haley - Rock Around The Clock
Kingsmen - Louie Louie
Contours - Do You Love Me
Chubby Checker - The Twist
Little Richard - Twist and Shout
Bobby Darin - Splish Splash, Rockin' Robin, and Dream Lover
The Searchers - Sweets for My Sweet
Van Morrison - Brown Eyed Girl
The Romantics - What I Like About You
Mickey and Sylvia - Love is Strange, and What Would I Do
Small Faces - Itchycoo Park
Simon and Garfunkle - Mrs. Robinson
Beatles - I want to Hold Your Hand, and I'm a Believer

[...]

I want a suit, a haircut and a time machine.

All I want is food, clothes, a clean home, weed, bikes, and a girl.

Grant me what I need to get that.

Any energy I don't spend keeping that
I will use to improve this world and the lives of its inhabitants.

News since 10 December

At the time of my last post, I was working as a bicycle messenger. For those who don't know, this is the single best job possible for a young man: getting paid to parade myself before the whole city on my pride and joy -- my bicycle.

If anyone cares, here's what my bike looks like: red with a yellow fork, Montreal-made Precision 10-speed frame, Shimano sealed bottom bracket, Shimano Alivio aluminum crank (one black, one chrome -- replaced after stripping the pedal threads) with 42 teeth, 18-tooth generic freewheel, Shimano SLR brake levers, Mafac "Racer" centre-pull brake calipers with MTB pads, long aluminum drop handlebars with MTB stem and red tape, mousetrap rack, 700C grey Alexrim on the front (off my Fuji Sagres, RIP) with a 25 tire, and a 27-inch chrome rim on the back with an alleycat card in its spokes from a race through a snowstorm that I FUCKING WON Y'ALL!!

I basically had my bike finished mid-January, and at that point I had the bike, the body, and the pay of a serious courier. I was drinking a case of Guru every two weeks (shit now they've got it in pints), puffing on a joint all day long, riding 50 hours a week, eating five meals a day, and I quit smoking for about two months until...

Tuesday 6 February 2007.

At 8:30 in the morning, I completely..fucking..destroyed...my left foot. I had my four layers of courier clothes, my bag full of morning mail, and a 3"x6"x12" package in my right hand. I was walking around the side of a building having dropped one package in the mail room, heading to an office on the ground floor to drop another. I let my guard down since I was no longer on the road, and I didn't think to stay in highly-trafficked areas, where the problem I was about to encounter tends not to be so bad: ICE. I put my left foot onto a tiny ice-rink no doubt tended by mice on miniature zambonis. It was so flat, and by the time my foot was on it, I had no time to react. WARNING GRAPHIC TEXT My foot slid away from my body and rolled out from under my leg, such that it was facing 90 degrees sideways (hello torn ligaments), and then (as well as I can figure) my more-than-full body weight came down on my fibia (the smaller leg bone on the side running down from the knee) and this caused the last two or three inches to snap off. I don't think you can do much worse, except a compound fracture. Anyway, it hurt like a son of a bitch and now I have a titanium plate about half an inch wide and about three and a half inches long bolted into my fibia.

So I didn't walk for three months and two weeks, until the middle of May! I lost most of my muscle mass in my calf, but I think I've got it back up to at least 50%. Overall, my leg's function is at about 95% of normal. After four months minus a day or two, I got back on my bike. I had cleaned it months previous, and had done nothing at all to it mechanically: it just sat there, clean and fully-functional, for four months. After a week of riding, I started to think stuff like "I want to be a courier again" and "I wish the gear ratio were harder." Even after months off, my excitement and general fitness mean that I have yet to go up St. Laurent without passing every other cyclist since I got back on the road.

For the last six weeks, I've been working every day as a bicycle mechanic. I'm getting really good! It's tricky dealing with the store: I need to build bikes quickly out of used parts, but they can't suck too hard or they'll be difficult to sell. I need quantity and quality -- as a result, the most crucial thing I'm learning is to guage how to make a satisfactory build or repair in a minimal amount of time. Personally I'd prefer to indulge my perfectionism, but since nobody wants to pay more than $200 for a used bike, I have to balance my efforts to produce something which neither causes the customers to complain that it's junk, nor causes my boss to complain that I'm costing him too much for the quantity of work I do.

Anyway, aside from my concerns about how broke I am (can't worry too much -- I've got enough to get high) and my family's concerns about how uneducated I'm becoming, and my chronic celibacy, I'm happy as a pig in shit. I moved out of my old building, which was literally a dump -- long story, I can ride my bike again, and it's summertime.

I wish the best for everyone. Thanks for reading =)

Long time, no post -- but I'm still a nerd.

And a jock =)

My life these days consists of riding my bike (a single-speed Sears racer from a couple decades ago) for money (not much), and hanging out with the few in Montreal who are not liars and thieves. =P

Still smoking, still loving the music, still single. My parents moved out of Toronto, so I don't know when I'll be coming back. Maybe I'll get a vehicle that can get on the highway. The plan for the next few months is to learn how to be a better mechanic and get credit for it too, get my Quebec residency worked out, investigate the avenues by which I may pursue an education in foreign languages and cultures, ride my bike like a bat out of hell and maybe..just maybe...

PARTY!!

Merry Christmas/Joyeux Noel!

Hmm. Another day.

To Do:
-Quit Smoking,
-Fall in Love.

I`m back in Montreal after my sweet ass vacation in Ontario. I feel so recharged. Call me if I don`t call you!

I am not sure if I have succeeded in making a more focused and meaningful livejournal, nor do I know if I really have anything to offer in my ramblings. In any case, however, here is my second post of the spring.

I've been working too much. I have a weird schedule and so I wake up in the afternoon and go to sleep at sunrise. I'm hoping to get out of this sooner rather than later, play some more music and maybe even crack a book, but right now I'm working like crazy in preparation for my summer vacation.

I'm going to the Om Reunion, 19-25 June. I'm planning to get back to Toronto on the 18th, or the 17th if I can swing it. I'm also planning to go to the Eclipse festival.

Now you know what I'm doing and where to find me! See you soon.

Oh, and my bike? SICK. New 700C28 tires, gear shifters, brake levers, brake pads, cables, handlebar tape, light...I just need a new air horn =)

Welcome to the real new year -- the start of Spring! Doesn't it seem a little odd that we celebrate the "new" year in the dead of winter? Centuries dead autocrats are still screwing with our minds.

Full Moon in Aries/Sun in Aries/TOTAL SOLAR ECLIPSE

So if your life hasn't exploded yet, be well assured that by tomorrow, the fuse will be lit.

And as far as my life is concerned, I'm getting by, working my ass off, eating meat again (I need it for lifting boxes of fruit all day), wishing for a tuned-up bicycle, a fridge and stove, and some new clothes.

No more f*cking bagels! =)

I am currently selling bagels at night on the weekends at Fairmount Bagel Bakery. Pro: good pay, free bagels, tips, très Montréalais. Con: shitty hours, caffeine addiction, sitting around on my off-hours smoking too much weed. But ça marche =)

Things I want to do but have not done yet: get involved with bike co-op, have spring, learn how to make a new meal, smoke less.

Things I have been enjoying: playing the digeridoo (thanks Eric you nutcase =P), listening to my full library of psychedelic trance CDs (thank you Tom), smoking too much weed, riding my fast bike in Montreal winter.

Things I have not been enjoying: cleaning my bathtub after cleaning my bike, falling repeatedly on ice. And not having cookies (or cuddles) when I wanted them.

Home, bike, job -- all in order.

I paid the rent on my loft in St. Henri, in which I now live by myself. I'm looking for a roommate or perhaps even two. Once the money is there, certain amenities can be afforded, such as a proper stove, a new couch, and perhaps even a refrigerator (though the idea of burning coal to make electricity to make a little place cool inside an apartment heated by electricity when it's -5 or colder outside most of the time seems a little excessive).

After going a few weeks without oil, I got all the gears greased on my blue Peugeot 10-speed, such that I now have five working gears again. Next I'll get it some lights, and maybe even get the front derailleur working.

Job...I don't want to jinx it, but things look good: starting immediately it's open for me to work nine hours a day four days a week, selling Montreal's best bagels. The catch: it'll be between 11 pm and 8 am. I knew this Capricorn thing was going to be a bitch...predictable, but tough. Oh well -- when I get days off, I'll be ready to party all night no problem.

And so begins the new year. Bonne annee tout le monde!

Chipmunkz Gangsta Rap
"We did coke, smak, bottles of Jack, f*cked underaged women both white and black..."

The Meatrix
"This family farm is an illusion, Leo."

Star Wars Gangsta Rap Second Edition
"WE GOT DEATHSTAR!"

And you know that we got it -- Deathstar!
And you know that we got it -- Deathstar!

I have decided that psy-trance is a lot of fun and I'm not giving it up unless I have to.

Tonight I have to because my knee, which I ground into the pavement Monday at 40+ kph, is not interested in dancing for ten hours straight at the Event Horizon launch party. I almost decided to go anyway...so close. Get some dinner, a ticket, find a joint, get a can of Guru into me, show up ready to see the house go up in a Sagittarian explosion...but no, it isn't worth my health.

I did, however, show up online at rave.ca under the alias BlueSoul. At least I did something to be sociable, even if I'm missing the event.

I suppose the Illuminati, the reptilian aliens and the energy vampires will soon be spamming me to death, but all the Romantics died young for silly things like poetry and music and drugs, and if I'm going to die anyway, I might as well go out in style.

P.S. Miraculously, an hour before the party, the condition of my knee improved by leaps and bounds, allowing me to finish crossing from one side of Montreal to the other on foot, and then to dance for ten hours. Woohoo! =)

Culture is not your friend.

--Terence McKenna

The treatment for your culture is a foreign culture. The treatment for your language is a foreign language. And, of course, magic mushrooms.


L`humeur Quebecois: quand je suis froid, c`est dix cents; quand je suis chaud, c`est deux pieces.

Though I still believe in good and evil, I think I'm through with sorting people into good and evil categories. We're all insane and nobody can really know how they affect others. While one can and should try one's best to affect others positively or not at all, one will still end up hurting people. Each of us has to feel the pain, find the source, and deal with the cause. If the cause of the pain is unintentional, like a rock in our shoe, we can easily solve it with our intent. If the cause of pain is intentional, then we must fight or flee: eventually, there will be a battle of intents in which the stronger prevails.

Here are a couple more links which I hope will brighten your day:

www.babaji.net
A prophet of the eternal religion and his advice on life in the face of the Great Revolution.

en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Novelty_Theory
Wikipedia entry on Terence McKenna's Novelty Theory.

deoxy.org/download/software/timewavezero/twz_win_4.3.zip
McKenna's Timewave Zero software.

Hi there, thanks for stopping by. This is my new livejournal for all those good and evil people who want to keep tabs on me. I appreciate your interest.

Unlike arktisblau, this journal will not be a narcissistic tribute to my supposed coolness or a childish outlet for the far from unique mix of feelings sloshing around inside me. However, I will now and then be leaving you all with some idea of what I'm thinking and feeling, and what has my attention.

I'm living in Montreal, j'apprende le francais, I'm working in the country and my greatest aim is to reduce my many attachments (eating, smoking, using the internet too much, routine...etc.). I'm fasting to the tune of Ramadan, and so far I've been finding it really pleasant and enlightening (the rule: no food while the sun is up). I have no idea when I'll leave here or where I'll go, though I plan to visit Toronto at some point.

My drug-catalysed journies through altered states over the past five years brought up a lot of questions and some answers and some more questions about the nature of God, life, and this world of ours. Having detoxed myself from my escalating cannabis habit (still fighting the cigarettes, with some success), I have been able to look at my experiences with sober eyes...yet I still have little clue. Here are some things I do know:

-Politically and economically, the world is screwed. World War III is revving up: the world's powers are fighting over the remaining hydrocarbon energy resources.
-Democracy is 90% a sham.
-Money, ideology and mass media control most of the minds on the planet, including mine to some degree yet!
-Lies are sugar-coated with truth.

Anyway, I'm not particularly worried or depressed, I just think this is ridiculous, hence I'm not particularly concerned about my university education or other such things in the short term...if somehow the current state of the world (or my mind, if it's all in there) blows over in the next couple of years, maybe I'll go back to the same kind of 1990s mindset of "it's all getting cleaner and better, technology will solve our problems, onward zu die schoene Zukunft." Or something else.

Here are some links I love which will hopefully lend you some help, understanding or at least amusement.

-www.fromthewilderness.com
A.K.A. www.copvcia.com, this site discusses the news in light of Peak Oil, the current driving force behind world politics and economics, the reason why gas that cost 50c a litre seven years ago now costs upwards of $1.10.
-mckenna.psychedelic-library.org/
Terence McKenna's audio mp3 library -- he didn't get everything spot on, but he saw something he called a "novelty concrescence" in the I-Ching which would occur around 2012, concurrent with the end of the Mayan calendar.
-www.xeeatwelve.com
Okay, here's the big swallow or spit, depending on what your tongue says: this is the craziest story I have ever heard. It might just be crazy enough to explain all this. I don't know -- you can judge for yourself. I've heard it from lots of different people while stoned, while on acid, and even while sober! There are definitely a lot of people out there who are familiar with it. If you consider yourself open-minded, this is the test.
-www.toltec.org
Information regarding dream practices.
-www.astrologyforthesoul.com
Introduction to the principles of astrology -- some say astrology is garbage, some say it is an imposition of darkness which limits us to archetypes which can never fully describe our eternal, super-samsaran souls, but in any case, I find that it works. Maybe it will work for you too.
-www.alabe.com/freechart
Free natal chart
-www.astro.com
Detailed daily horoscope, part for free, with information on the transits of the heavenly bodies (i.e. not just "here's what Cancer gets today").
-www.astrowisdom.com
Good information on the current astrological weather, with respect to the lunar cycle.